Yeah, still alive..

Yup. As the title, I am still alive and kicking. Just no update here.

Early this year, I have a number of projects that I have planned for this blog, or even not for blog, still something to do for this year. Sadly, none materialized.

Reason being, I was and still am too busy with work. Though the projects supposed to distract me from work-stressed, but still in the end, I just have no energy. One major contribution also because of me myself. I have no motivation whatsoever.

Bright sunflowers

Bright sunflowers

Wish that I can be a bright as this sunflowers. Shining..

Coffee time at Strand Archade

Coffee time at Strand Arcade

This shot was from my trip to Sydney end of last year. I didn’t have lots of time for sight-seeing. This was a few hours that I managed to get away from work. Nice ambience. Cute waiters (yeah this is important). Nice coffee. Very relaxing.


GOODBYE 2014, WELCOME 2015..

Too many things happened this year. The goods, the bad, the in-between.


  1. Finally, bought a car, a Proton Suprima. Yeah.. A proton. What can I say. That was the only higher specs car i can afford. However some odd times, i did regret buying it since after I bought it, the petrol’s price keeps getting more expensive. L
  2. Still no new house either moving or buying. L
  3. No travelling too except the one working trip to Sydney. Not really a planned visit but at least I got 2 days get-to-know Sydney days.
  4. New housemates, again. I had bad cases of housemates this year.
  5. Got myself a new hobby. I started some artsy project. Kind of funny actually since that is a skill I don’t really have but it is fun. I’ve join 2 monthly face-drawing challenges. Though not really impressive result but I am still proud of myself. Haha.


  1. 1 wedding (nephew) and 2 engagements (nephew and niece). So 2 wedding can be expected next year.
  2. 3 new nieces, 1 grand-niece and 1 grand-nephew. Talk about additional minions to the family. Plus 1 coming soon in 2015 if all went well. J
  3. My father had a knee surgery after he got affected by unknown bacteria, or something. A little swell turned out serious after less than 2 weeks that ended up have to go through surgery. My father has to spend almost a week in the hospital.
  4. My elder sister was undergoing operation to remove her ovaries and uterus after a check-up showed threatening fibroid and cyst. She is still in recovery stage now.
  5. Bad cases of dengue. Started with my eldest sister after the Eid, then her son, and later if I’m not mistaken her granddaughter. Luckily not as bad as my sister. Then in November, by other nephew, and also luckily not so bad that has to be hospitalized.
  6. My younger sister affected by flood again this year. The water level rose higher than last year. Luckily, my sister learnt a lesson from last year flood. She prepared early. And when the water level kept rising and rising, she left the house and headed to my father’s house to avoid being forced to evacuation center. As this date, the flood slowed down, and she able to move back to her house. Though she is still taking precaution because there are news that there will second/third wave coming.


  1. I have being promoted to senior position. Sadly the salary not really at par but the responsibility increased.
  2. The most hectic year so far. There was a new government product that we needed to comply with our system. We worked more than 8 hours a day for 2-3 months. Super crazy.
  3. New demanding project started in September and I am one of the person involved in the initial preparation. It is a new experience and new challenge. Lots of new stuff need to be learnt for this new project and we will be busy again until end of May 2015.
  4. Because of the project above, I have been given the opportunity to work in Sydney office for 7 days. I was so nervous going there. Foreign environment, lots of colleagues’ expectations and of course the language barrier since my English is just so-so and added with the Australian accent that gave me trouble some times. Fortunately, all went well. J


  1. Books – my target was 20 books and not included re-read. I haven’t analysed yet. But looks like almost there or reached that amount. Will update later.
  2. Car/house – bought a car but not the house.
  3. Saving – my target to get a total of 10K. I reached that amount in May but because of deposit for the car, now it became <10K but almost there. Not so bad.
  4. Credit card – target was to clear the outstanding and left only monthly expenses by August. I managed to achieve this by August. Yay! So far still maintain.
  5. Exercise – at least twice a month for jogging/walking. This is not big enough for everyone but actually difficult for me. Sadly I cannot make it especially these last few months L
  6. Weight loss – Started 2014 with 52.3kg. My target was 50kg. Again, another difficult feat. I had reached as high as 54 kg this year which is the heaviest I have being in my entire life. The least weight was 51.5kg. By November I gave up and thinking of maintaining the 51-52 kg. Surprisingly, by this date, I have reached 50 – 50.2kg. Not sure what happened but somehow I achieved my target. LOL!.


  1. More and more goods’ prices increased. Meaning daily expenses getting higher. So not at par with salary now.
  2. 3 incidents with our airlines. Early this year we were shocked by the missing MH370. Mid-year, MH137 being shot down. And last week Airasia flight from Surabaya QZ8501 crashed into the ocean. Al-Fatihah to the people being called by the Creator.
  3. Flood, this year is the worst I have ever seen. Especially in Kelantan where some places totally submerged under water like Kota Bharu, Kuala Krai, Tnh Merah and Gua Musang. The whole state almost in paralysed by the flood where no road to outside was cleared. Most of my friends that live there or have family there affected by the flood. Really when watching the news.

There are so many sad things but still I am still grateful for the good things. Pray and hope for a better year next year.

Goals and aim for 2015? Maybe later. 🙂

Ending The October..

End of October 2014. Meaning another 2 months till 2015. Wow weee.
I don’t know whether this is a good news or bad news. Yet.
To cut short, here you go. (well, actually because I don’t know what else to say)

1. We had Eid eary this month. I parcitipated in the qurban. We also had small feast for Aqiqah of my 3 new nieces at my father’s house. Very tiring effort but satisfying enough because no bad incident we cannot manage especially since we kind of short of hands since my elder sisters not coming back.
2. I took 2 hours of refreshing driving-class. I am proud to say I still remember most of the techniques. Saying that, I am still not confident enough to drive a manual car on my own on the road yet. However, the teacher said, I have enough skill to drive an auto car. Just that I need to be more confident. 🙂
3. #2 means my car still with my sister than my brother. My brother needs the car now. So… 😦
4. New housemate again. It took us longer to find replacement this time. I think nowadays, people looking for luxury compared to last time. Same questions every time, washing machine, network, cable-tv. Luckily last week we got a confirmed new housemates. 2 girls sharing the room. Looks like nice girls. I hope.

Moner Matters:
1. I received a $200 money voucher from the government for ‘festive allowance- single’. I never got this before and I don’t know how my BIL did to get me this. Maybe not much but still, free money.
2. Received $100 dividen from CIMB. Yay. Another free money. Sadly this is the last one.
3. Finally bought a new handbag. Dark-red Elle handbag cum backpack. Big enough for my office docs. I got a good deal for this. 20% discount + AEON voucher, ended up I paid <$180 for the bag. Nice!!
4. One bored day in the office, I surfed the net, got me to, got me to this seller that sell cheap t-shirt. The destructive impact -> I bought 3 long sleeves t-shirts plus 1 blouse for $92 with free shipping. Though the t-shirt not as good as I expected with thin material and bigger size that the site’s measurement, I still say this is a good buy.
5. I was really in tight budget this month because of the Eid and the feast. Luckily the salary was out early this month in conjunction of Deepavali holiday. 🙂

1. Another training continued from last month. Also more meetings.The light is still very dim to me. Lots more info needed to make a clearer picture of the planning and stages.
2. Programming-wise – I am very slow to catch-up with this new stuff. A bit demotivated by this luckily my colleague is very patient with me and the A-Team not yet in the project. So we can take our time to master the new stuff. Hopefully I can produce workable result before she come to KL.

1 I had bad case of high-fever and flu. My 4 months complete attendance was tarnished by a one-day medical leave I have to take. I am grateful enough it didn’t reach worse stage.

Book read:
1. Toys – James Petterson. Not yet write the review.
2. The Collectors – David Baldacci.( I like this more that Toys). Not yet write the review.

Looking forward to November:
1. 3 of my colleagues will be in KL for the new project and also for training. Plus our new boss too. One of the colleague is the closest I have here and another one I haven’t met yet so far.
2. If all went well, I will get my car back. Hopefully. Since November will be yet another raining month, with the car, at least I have the choice to drive instead of taking public transport. Though that also means I will have extra expences too.

All in all, I think October passed by fast early in the month but after middle, it became slower.
I am dragging to get to November, though I have no idea why.

Happy Mother’s Day.


ImageHappy Mother’s Day to all the mothers in the world.

I envy those who still has the chance to celebrate with their mothers. Not that I celebrate it before, since my late mother didn’t like this kind of thing, but most of the time, I did something or bought something for her. The last gift I gave was a handmade sequin handbag because she loved these crafty thing. I bought it in Bali. She was so happy she got it. I am not sure whether she got the chance to use it because few weeks after that she passed away.

I know I wasn’t the best daughter. We did have our ups and downs. I know sometime I did hurt her. I had this very bad temper that sometimes it exploded without thinking of the consequences. My mother such a soft person. She rarely mad at me. Or my siblings. I guess that was the reason why after losing my temper, the guilt and regret as high as a mountain. But she never hold it against me.

One of the thing she worried most about me was me not married. She didn’t want me to be alone. She wanted me to have somebody that will take care of me like I did taking care of my siblings. She wanted me to have kids. Her idea was I’ll be more secured with a husband besides me. Though I wasn’t really agreed with her, but I think she carried that worries with her till the last day.

Today 12th May, is 4th anniversary she leaving this world to another, eternity one. I never forgot her. I miss her a lot. She is always in my prayer.

I hope I have the chance to meet you again one day.


Love you,

Random posting..

I planned to include some works in yesterday’s post but the net was so lagging, i cannot upload any of this.

So here comes some of the works that I did last week. Still has some that not yet included though.

Kochi kochi..

Lazy cat staring at me..

A happy cat..


Butterfly aiming for the flower

Posted early today because I will be having family time later this afternoon. We going to have a bbq dinner at my sister’s house. Going to be fun.

Have a good weekend.!!

Life rambling and some works….

April is my birthday month. Yeah, I’m getting older his month.

Weirdly, as many has pointed out to me, I am not really concerned about age or getting older. I mean, what can I do about my process of ageing? Not that I stop it if I want, right?

So I just go with the flow. Make changes a bit here and there, appropriate with the age like way of dressing. and try hardest to live as happy as I can. No use of worrying about wrinkle. Okay. That’s a lie. I do fretting when I saw lines under my eyes. But I’m not losing my sleep over it.

At my age, my friends already married and have kids, and people expected that from me too. The question ‘When will getting married’ or worst ‘go find a guy’.But what am I going to do about it. Not that I can find and buy husband at supermarket. Duhhh!!

Enough rambling..

Here something I worked on in this month. Not great but I’m happy with the results. I’m not seeking impressive and outstanding result. For me to finish a sketch or fully colored a drawing to my satisfaction is rewarding enough.

Hey, I’m not delusional. Nor low self-esteem. I know my skill level. I’m working on getting better. So just wait a bit.

#1 – Random girl – using marker pen, ink and bit of oil pastelImage

#2 – Random stuff in the room, my body lotion and my friend, abottle of vitamin C – using fully oil pastel and outlined with black pen


#3 – Random girl with bright color hair. This on, I did the sketch last month but cannot seem to get the idea of finishing it. My last part was the mouth. I was happy to finally finished it yesterday. May fav but somehow the photo was not very inspiring – using marker ink and oil pastel for the face and background.


** Haven’t finish A Walk To Remember yet. Bad Anna!
** Right now, I’m working on a series of animal drawing and coloring. tbc.

Ending the March

March already coming to end. OH NO!!!
This means first quarter of 2014 has ended and tomorrow is the start of new month and new quarter.

Bits and bits of what going on during this month.. Yosh!!

1. Nephew wedding – Wedding is always a most welcome event in my family. Except for Eid, wedding is one of the event that gathered almost all family. Sadly the other event is funeral.
21/3 – Solemnization – no color theme. I wore black-red.
22/3 – Bride’s side wedding reception. The theme color for our family was green. So you can see different shades of green. Green, green everywhere.
23/3 – Groom’s side wedding reception (my side). The theme was golden-orange. I am not sure what the color’s official name. Luckily I managed to find a tailor for my dress. The reception was held at Dewan Merak Kayangan Felda. The food rumoured to be awesome (rumoured becaused I only had some).
Lots of relatives and my ex-colleagues coming to celebrate. Some which we haven’t met for ages.
Like I said this was family gathering. Most of us stayed at my sister’s house for those 3 days. So imagined the food, kids, laughters and don’t forget the gossip. 🙂


2. Steam-bot dinner with my friends. Somehow this sort of our monthly dinners. 3 of us with different personalities, backgrounds and ages.

1. Benefits Pore-fessional and their new BB Cream
2. A Skirt + a pair of shoes (brown-greyish)
3. Mini table for my computer. Initial plan was to buy the laptop mini-table but I found this mini-table which I think can be more useful than only as a laptop table plus with $5 less.
4. New perfume because I emptied the last one. Too many new perfume I like and under consideration. In the end I bought the old Fifth Avenue by Elizabeth Ardent. Haha.

1. Mercy – Julie Garwood (re-read)
2. Up Close and Dangerous – Linda Howard
3. A Walk to Remember – Nicholas Sparks (Currently reading)

Hope to do but didn’t:
1. Taking few hours photo-taking in town. Reason – haze was very bad, health issues and nephew’s wedding-related preparation
2. Weekly-themed artwork.

Health issues:
1. Mild chest pain due to bad haze throughout the month
2. High fever plus bacteria infection that caused me to take 3 days medical leave. Tons of medications and a blood test.

1. BUSY!!

#MH370 dissappearing and not yet found until today. Even though lots of countries comes to help, we only have rumours and unconfirmed info. This is a sad happening that affected the whole country regardless of race, religion and age. It is sad to say that it took a tragedy such as this to see ‘united’  in Malaysia.

Our Prime Minister already declared and concluded the plane was crashed with no survivals (though I don’t understand why because the plane still missing), I am still hoping for good news. #MH370.



All in all there was nothing I regretted tooo much this month. Maybe smaller things but not worth losing sleep for.

My hopes and expectation for April:
1. Finishing A Walk to Remember.
2. Do the thing in the list of ‘Hope to do but didn’t’.