Happy Mother’s Day.


ImageHappy Mother’s Day to all the mothers in the world.

I envy those who still has the chance to celebrate with their mothers. Not that I celebrate it before, since my late mother didn’t like this kind of thing, but most of the time, I did something or bought something for her. The last gift I gave was a handmade sequin handbag because she loved these crafty thing. I bought it in Bali. She was so happy she got it. I am not sure whether she got the chance to use it because¬†few weeks after that she passed away.

I know I wasn’t the best daughter. We did have our ups and downs. I know sometime I did hurt her. I had this very bad temper that sometimes it exploded without thinking of the consequences. My mother such a soft person. She rarely mad at me. Or my siblings. I guess that was the reason why after losing my temper, the guilt and regret as high as a mountain. But she never hold it against me.

One of the thing she worried most about me was me not married. She didn’t want me to be alone. She wanted me to have somebody that will take care of me like I did taking care of my siblings. She wanted me to have kids. Her idea was I’ll be more secured with a husband besides me. Though I wasn’t really agreed with her, but I think she carried that worries with her till the last day.

Today 12th May, is 4th anniversary she leaving this world to another, eternity one. I never forgot her. I miss her a lot. She is always in my prayer.

I hope I have the chance to meet you again one day.


Love you,


Review(Book) : 2014-5 A Walk To Remember – Nicholas Sparks

I watched the movie ages ago. I remember I didn’t have any expectation because I only know Mandy Moore as a singer and not really a fan. And this was my only Shane West movie I watched at the time. Plus I was not exposed to Nicholas Sparks’ work. I was surprised that I like the movie.
I was planning to read the book which it was based on but soo forgot about it. Few weeks ago, I found the book in my favorite bookstore and bought it.

Pics from Goodreads

Synosis from Goodreads

Character : Jamie Sullivan, Langdon Carter, Hegbert Sullivan (Jamie’s father)

The story: Jamie a good-dooer, quite, daughter of baptist’s minister. Met Langdon, the opposite personality.
Well, opposite attracts.

The interaction started when Langdon joined the drama class which he thought would be an easy way to gain credit with no test. There also Jamie which even though he knew her since childhood but not really know her.

One conversation then another then another. Jamie brought the good in Langdon even though he tried very hard not to, especially because of the little communications they had, Langdon became subject of ridicule of his friends. No bad things but neverheless embarrassing for the teenager.

They later involved in a Christmas play. Langdon and Jamie became the lead characters. They began to get closer.
Langdon getting to know ‘Jamie’ inside of Jamie. And of course, attracted to her, against his wish.

When he realized that he was falling in love with Jamie, he found out a bomb-worthy news. Jamie was dying of leukemia. This was where the story started getting teary. The story continued of how they faced the remaineing days of Jamie’s life.

Towards the ending, few drops of tears escaped my eyes which is quite rare. I am not a romantic type. Lovers tragedy maybe touched me but rarely emitted tears. I am more sensitive to family tragedy especially that involved parents. So this is telling something about the book.

By the way, the story narrated by Langdon character that actually 50++ years old. So there were some comparison what was at the time and what was now (in current Langdon’s age)

The story was too short for my liking. I like longer story. (not the complaint about the book actually)
The plot was good but too monotous in my opinion. It was like a straight flat line without much of ups and downs.
It is good for light reading but when I started reading I was expecting more drama.

Like I said, I watched the movie agesss ago. So I dont really remember whether the movie followed the book or not.
But most review I’ve read saying the literature form is better then the movie part.
Maybe I need to rewatch the movie too.

I gave 4.2/5 and would recommend this book.